Its only been 24 hours and already life is returning to normal. It's strange in a way, strange how you adjust to them not being there as though that’s always how its been.

Last night after the obligatory tears, Roop and myself sat in front of the PC and booked the flights. Forget everything I said a few entries back. Not only is Roop going to see her….I am going as well.

We fly out to OK spend a few days there, recovering after the journey then its another early morning flight to AL. We will spend Monday to Friday with her. We are looking for hotels in the area but they are so expensive, well they are to my mind but I am still equating US Dollars to be equal to Pounds Sterling, which doesn’t quite work.

Apprehension is not quite the word I am looking for, oh yes I am apprehensive and a lot more besides. I am not quite sure how I feel and I don’t think I will truly know till I am actually there.

This little adventure is going to take all my savings and some more besides. Bang goes our weekends away and my plan to take him to Rome.

I need to win the lottery, saying that I did win £70 on Wednesday so that is going straight into my savings. That should pay for the hotel at least.

I don’t think the past few weeks have properly sunk in yet, I am working on automatic pilot, my hands and feet are freezing and I am finding it very hard to concentrate on anything. I suspect once the funeral is over, I can work everything out in my head and slowly get back to some kind of normality.

I just have one last thing to say. Thanks for your kind words in my GB. It is truly appreciated.

Oh and Rupert…Thank you for everything. It means a lot to have you here with me.

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