I am getting used to being on my own now, I still miss him rather badly though. He misses me as well, I don’t think as much because he is so busy. It’s the quiet times that are the worse, that 10 minutes before you fall asleep in bed, before we used to talk about our days and what we had planned for the following day. Now I am finding myself spreading out and sleeping in the middle of what seems to be rather a large bed. Too big for one at least.

Now we are apart I am going out with my friends more and getting to know them outside of work. Its not I don’t like them but the work environment puts pressure on you to be nice all the time but I am finding that I really do like them. That eases the pressure a little.

This weekend is going to be a busy one again for me. I am at the stables all day on Saturday as there is a Show on. I am going with a work colleague so that should be fun and very tiring.

Sunday is going to be one of cleaning, last week it was far to wet to wash the car, if its muddy at the stables it will definitely need doing on Sunday. I need to do the housework as well as my parents are coming for a visit the week after.

Its my Dads birthday this Friday but it wont be celebrated, my Grandad is worse. He has been in hospital for two weeks on a glucose drip as he can’t eat. The cancer has grown even more in his throat. Although he is home now, my Dads sister is looking after him and my parents will bring him to their house each weekend to give her a break.

Mum doesn’t think it will be long now. I hope so too in a way. I hate to see people suffer, I think in theses circumstances people should be allowed to die. If it was a pet suffering we would have no qualms about ending the suffering so not people.

I agree there will have to be very strict guidelines but I admire Diane Pretty and I think she should be allowed to make the biggest decision of her life.

I am going to go out tonight but I am going to have something to eat this time and I am not going to keep up with Gordy who is the spit for John Goodman or even Sully from Monsters Inc.

Wish me luck……

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